Raphael - 1 Year Old

Dear Raphael,

I can't believe that you are a year old. This year has gone by so fast. It's been a wild ride, but we are all so grateful. You complete us.

We had a few challenges, but we overcame them. We never expected that you would make your arrival at 35 weeks. You really gave us a scare when you arrived and when you had to stay in the NICU for a few days. My little prince, you are such a fighter. You are so strong.

You are the sweetest little boy. Everywhere we go, you have a smile on your face. Everyone loves it and always ask us if you are always so happy. Your laugh brings us so much joy. Your father and I love when your older brothers try to make you laugh.

Even though you are only a year old, I love that you and are your brothers are close. They love to play with you. I pray that you and your brothers are always close. I hope the bond that you boys have will always stay strong.

You are doing so well with your physical therapy. Your physical therapist is always surprised and happy when she sees how well you are doing. You're crawling, sitting up, and we can tell that you are going to start walking very soon.

I've been reflecting so much over the past few days. There's so much to look back on this past year. The beginning was an emotional time for me. I will admit that there were days when I cried. I was so worried because you came early. I thought I did something wrong even though the doctors said that I didn't. I felt like I failed to protect you. We took you to the doctor so many times that you might as well say that the doctor's office was our second home. Honestly, I think I was just worried because you were a preemie. This year was definitely a learning experience for me.

When I look back on this past year, I think about how much you've grown. I think about how much joy and love you have brought into our lives. We have made so many wonderful memories as a family. We have enjoyed watching you experience things for the first time. I think that may be one of my favorite things. Watching you experience things for the first time has been amazing. The way your eyes light up when you see something for the first time. Whether you're trying new foods, playing with a new toy, or exploring someplace new...I can't tell you how much it brings me joy that I get to watch you experience new things and make new memories.

It is truly an honor to be your mommy. I'm so glad that you are in our lives and I'm grateful that you are my son. I can't wait to celebrate more milestones and birthdays.

Happy birthday my wild boy, my sweet prince, my little man. We love you so much.