I feel like I'm going through a season of tenderness. My entire body has been going through waves of exhaustion and feeling untethered. My heart has especially been feeling fragile.
The election left my heart fractured. I'm so distraught and saddened by the results, the state of our country, and what's to come. I'm currently torn over whether to stop watching and reading the news, but I also want to be kept up to date with current events.
My youngest niece was born this month. I was so excited to finally meet her. As I held her, I wondered what her future would look like. I remember telling her, "Welcome to this wild world, Vivi." I hope the world becomes a better, safer place for my children, nieces, and nephews. I remind myself that our family comes from a long line of strong and resilient women. I remind myself that there is hope. With new life...comes hope.
Motherhood has me in a whirlwind of emotions. My sons are in different stages of childhood. My youngest son is not yet in his preteen or teen years, so seeing his independence emerging is a joy. My oldest son is in his teens, and my middle son will soon join in that stage. I am absolutely not ready for the puberty years. It's starting to hit me that they are growing up, and my youngest son will be our last baby. I just want to hold on to their innocence for as long as possible. However, watching them grow and move into different stages is an honor. For that, I am grateful.
To combat this season of tenderness, I'm finding comfort in spending time with my family. I find comfort in reading good books and my favorite newsletters, listening to my favorite music, watching all the cozy holiday movies, and making art. I find comfort in drinking seasonal hot chocolates and indulging in a sweet treat or two. I'm finding comfort with my cozy socks and favorite blanket. I'm combating this season of tenderness with all the things that bring me so much joy and a little bit of peace. This feeling of tenderness may be here, but it's not here to stay. And that brings me so much comfort.
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